Late Night Epiphanies ~ Healing The Wounds
Late Night Epiphanies ~ Healing The Wounds
Not all wounds are visible. Some may not be seen but are there, more deeper and hurtful than anything visible and bleeds. No?
Some say time heals everything but many a time I think that it only cuts the wounds deeper and deeper and it becomes more painful than ever before.
In my childhood, I was so much fascinated about the endless skies, glittering stars and the beautiful magic they created together. The night sky was so much thrilling to me. And that was also a reason why I chose to sleep on roof under the stars and the moon. One day I got to know about the Comets. My father told me about that. He would tell me that there was a star which had a long tail. And on my excited question, how long?! He would tell me, "It is so long that it touches the ground and you can even climb up to the sky by it." I asked him eagerly. "So when can I see it?"
"In early morning", He replied.
So we have got some time for now. We will walk till morning to see that Comet through these sky roads. And till then as I promise you always, I will never let you bored. So lets move on to this darkness. And as always..
It is soothing and pacifying..
Today I tell you a story. A story of a lady who was born in a poverty stricken village in Maharashtra, India. She never really had any education. When She was a little girl and wanted to go to school her parents made her to take care of buffaloes. When she was 9 years old, she was married to a 30 years old man. By the time, She was 19, she had 3 sons and expecting one more child.
There was a mafia type of person who was exploiting the people of village, especially women, forcing them work really hard in fields and practically paying them nothing. The lady complained of this man to the local collector who was overseeing the police of the area. That ultimately stopped the man in what he was doing. Though It didn't go well with him. He was very furious against the lady. He went to her husband and told him, "You are such a stupid person. Your wife is having affair with so many men outside and you are sitting here and know nothing. Infact the child that is within her womb is actually not yours' but mine. Either you kill her and the child or else I kill you."
The husband got angry. When she got back to home after work her husband kicked her in stomach repeatedly to kill her and the child. She laid unconscious. He thought, She was dead. So he dragged her to cowshed where a whole heard of cows was being kept. Thinking that the people will feel that the cows and buffaloes just trampled her and that's how she died.
She laid there unconscious and when she woke up, she found a cow standing right above her. The cow was actually protecting her from other buffaloes and cows who could have trampled her. When her in-laws came to confirm her death the cow chased them away with her horns. The lady came to consciousness and gave birth to a baby girl under that cow. She said that it took her 20 slices to cut the umbilical cord with a rock.
For hours and hours the cow protected her and when she got enough strength to stand up, she stood and hugged that cow and promised her, "the way you protected me when I was in a great need, I will protect others when they are in need."
Noone was there to back her. Her own biological family had rejected her. Because according to their tradition once you are married you can never come back home. In order not to be assaulted she used to sleep in a crematorium with her child. She would collect wheat that people threw around the dead bodies and mix it with water and used to cook that on the pyres of burning corpses...
It became such a depressing life for her. And she decided to not grow her child like this. She decided to commit suicide. She went to a railway track, laid there with her little girl and waited for the train to come and crush them. And then she heard a voice of an old man who was crying for some food and water. She woke up and saw that the man was crippled. She decided to help him and begged some food for that old man. She recalls that voice to be of Lord Krishna. Like it was telling her that she had much greater purpose in life than to commit suicide. She thought that she must had something to contribute in this world. She gave up the idea of committing suicide.
One day she was wandering in a field thinking she had nothing and noone. How could she help people! Then she sat under a tree. She saw there a branch which the woodcutter had violently cut and still that branch was hanging there with a single string. That branch was giving her and her child 'shed'. She thought, "This is the answer. However much I have been beaten down but still I could do something for others."
The lady then went in search of homeless, abandoned, orphaned children and provided them shelter. She somehow learnt singing a little and begged for them in trains. After some time people recognised her work and built an orphanage for her. The lady went to become a mother of 1500 children and thousands of grandchildren. All of her children had good education and earned name in the society. Her biological daughter whom she gave birth under a cow, to whom she sent to another orphanage so that she could treat her children equally, went to become a medical doctor. She received many awards internationally for her accomplishments. But this is not what she tells her greatest achievement in life. Years and years later an old man came to her place asking for shelter. After staring some time she recognised him. This was her ex husband.
She told him, " When you left me to die, I was homeless and in rags. Now you are here homeless and in rags and see I have a nice place with so many people to give you shelter.
But not as a wife, as a mother."
The lady is Sindhutai Sapkal
This smiling face brought smiles to many withered faces who were left abandoned on roads.
Even after so much recognition in society she claims her greatest achievement is, getting enough strength to forgive her husband. The man who was responsible for all of her wounds that she healed by healing others.
Inspiring story, isn't it?
So when my father told me about the time which was about 4'o clock in the morning, I started waking up early to see that tail star. Everyday I would wake up to see that but it was never there. Did you see it tonight, no?
With time Sindhutai was able to find enough strength to forgive her husband. Her wounds got healed. Well! Does it apply to all wounds then?
I don't think so. What about 'separation'.!
With time, there are more distances. And with distances the memories fades. Every minute after then encourages the two to move forward without each other. It only cuts the wounds deeper but that doesn't heal anyway.
So what should we do then!?
Well I could never see that tail star. It was never there. And very soon my childish mind sadly got to know that there was no such star which had that much long tail. Infact the Comets are the broken pieces of rocks that revolves around the Sun and have a tail like structure. See yourself.. It's just magical..
Though time can't heal everything. Sometimes it's just about adaptation to the changes in life. You don't complain anymore. You just try to forget and move gracefully with all your dignity.
Just like the Comets or like that branch of a tree, with time they found purpose to move on. As someone said,
"Plant healing words in your heart's wound and one day you will discover a garden full of flowers of love".
Leave your heart open to the world and eventually the world will fill it with more love and peace.
We have walked a long way tonight. I didn't find that tail star even tonight but one day I will find that for sure. The wounds no more bleed now but that doesn't mean it got healed but one day would heal for sure. Though tonight some of them got scratched .. it bleeds now.. it hurts like hell..
It's time for me to sleep with my Epiphanies.
Meet you somewhere in the woods where you
Be like a tree and let the dead leaves drop ЁЯНВ
Akshay✍
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