The Twilight

The Twilight Of Life

Twilight

The time at which the Sun and the Moon meet.. 

It's neither a day nor a night.. 

It's Twilight 

When at horizon the land meets the sky ..

 

This is a time when all birds return to their nests after a long day spent in a run to keep their survival on. 

This is the time when bells start ringing in temples and azaans are called  out in mosques. 

This is the time when sky colours itself miraculously in different shades. 

All look so beautiful..isn't it?

Well this is a time when day ends and night slips in.. 

And exactly like this one many a time we go through similar twilights in our life which look beautiful and dreadful at same time. We often get confused then.. What is there we should be looking at..! The colourful skies or the setting sun..!!

This feels when a hope ends.. When you expected something but it didn't go that way and that very mishappening happen in a grand ceremonial way. You don't know how to react.. 

The Twilights Of Life..

The last year was indeed a year filled with so much distress all around. A pandemic that caused millions of lives in world and economic disaster that followed had left no one untouched. I didn't plan for that year and who the hell would've?  A year that cost more than a year to me, drove me away from my destinations a year behind. But there I saw a silver lining in the clouds. I got selected for the post of flying officer in Indian Airforce. Well it was a half done job yet. I had to face an interview to confirm it which was scheduled for the coming year to which everyone looked with hopes and so I did.. I thought it must be the year to end my all miseries and serve nation with an honour. Well it didn't go that way.. 

Here I am with all that old stuffs in my hand.. 

A dream to keep thriving me.. 

Desires to keep burning me.. 

And ambitions to keep pushing me..

It was the first time when I had been to South India. It was a beautiful all over green clad land of amazing scenery. I went to Mysore, the sandalwood city of India. It was such a lovely place to go to. The very first word that came in my mind when I alighted in Mysore was, 'Wow.. ' A place located in the foothills of Chamundi Hills looked quite like a beautiful hill station. The most attractive thing was its amazing ancient architecture. I decided to visit the whole place and nearby places once my purpose was over.

And here I went wrong. The magic of Mysore's beauty had not yet gone in my mind, the unpleasant result arrived. After which every beautiful thing there looked so harsh and haunting. Everything now was pushing me out and I decided to opt out the decision to visit South and boarded the very first train to bengaluru to go home back.

Well before that  I had to make call to my mother who was eagerly waiting for my selection and was quite confident too. It took me 11 calls to dial and then hang up to make her a final call. It drew tears into my eyes. Never mind please, we men do cry. 

I left Mysore the beautiful city immediately without even catching a glimps of its grand Mysore Palace. Now as I look at its grandeur, I must say, I have certainly missed the best thing I could have ever visit.

Credits goes to the Twilight..

Mysore Palace

I boarded a flight from bengaluru to jaipur on my return. I remember when my father brought me a toy aeroplane ✈  in my childhood. I was so fascinated about planes and that all and I always wished to board in a flight at least for once in life and there I was.. My first flight 🤗

But .. but.. 

it was preceded by a rejection that has already overpowered my mind. I was not thinking to fly but I was in an another flight of crushed dreams. The Twilight as I said..🙂

I didn't know how to react.. 

It happens to every one of us at some moments when we are at that twilight where we don't know how we should behave.

But Twilights are followed by a night 🌙  to introspect and then a day to embark again on a new journey. 

To start with a new day, a night is necessary and for a night, the Twilight is ...

When we sit at a slant rooftop, far away from life's clamour, a breeze when sneakily touches our soul and takes us with it to the boundless skies or to the depthless oceans, the delight what we feel then is actually nothing but the beauty of Twilight.

It tells me why the sun sets and why the moon arise.. 

Why it was necessary to have that twilight..

Failure, rejections all these unpleasant things are inevitable part of our lives. When we forget to value the fortune we have, a misfortune is needed to remind us. I have gone through this even earlier and many things like this have shattered me quite often but like all those times I decided to stay strong this time too. And at every time when I go through these I recite Invictus a poem by William Earnest Henley

        "In the fell clutch of circumstance

                 I have not winced nor cried aloud

        Under the bludgeonings of chance

                 My head is bloody, but unbowed.

        Beyond this place of wrath and tears

                 Looms but the Horror of the shade,

        And yet the menace of the years

                 Finds and shall find me unafraid.."

   

So this time too my head is bloody but unbowed. We shall walk again .. We shall fly again.. We shall dream again.. As Allama Iqbal writes..

              "सितारों से आगे जहाँ और भी हैं 

                    अभी इश्क़ के इम्तिहाँ और भी हैं.."

We will be walking through these challenges and will keep winning and losing.. We will stay tall and strong together in all these passing Twilights..

Sun 🌞 is about to set now.. me at the rooftop watching him calmly and this time I am just admiring the beauty it spreads.. the colour it sprinkles..

The Twilight it creates..

Thank you..

Akshay✍

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