The Mountain Between Us

"I don't miss you now. I don't even care for you. And ofcourse, I am the happiest soul on this planet. Get lost now."

Some nights are scary just like this one. Under these countless glittering stars I am all alone here. You know na, I liked being here always, but not today. The memories haunt me now. I am strolling on terrace, my favorite place where we could see each other, could send each other those hand waves. Now see, only I am left here, just to stroll.  

Do you remember that night I called you??  

Actually I woke up that night, I woke up by a dream in which something pulled you away from me. I ran to catch you until I fell. Very soon your eyes faded and you disappeared. 

I was so haunted that I couldn't sleep again. I was afraid that I might see that dream again. Just a thought of going away from you could make me restless, even a dream could turn into nightmare.

Do you know, how I wanted our story to be...

I never imagined any heroic things to happen here. Without any epic twist and turn, I just wanted a simple and sweet journey with you. Without promising each other the moon and the stars of the world. We could just simply hold our hand together and walk along. 

Your silly things could continue to make me laugh and my emotional breakdowns could always keep you busy. We could keep going together to those street side eateries. We could keep sharing our favorite songs to each other. I could keep writing for you and you could keep reading for me. 

Do you know how I wanted our story to be   ...

Where we could keep sitting side by side through every thick and thin.. 

Where our souls could continue to breathe along until the death do them apart.

But...

But see I am here but you are not there anymore. Or should I say, we both are not there where we meant to be! Time changed everything drastically. Now there is a mountain between us that we can't cross even when we want to. These distances have created a lot of fissures we can't jump across. Why such things happen.? Why do we need to part ways when we promised to walk together.? Why we have to turn our lives into hell when we could simply live together.?

 You know na, when we start loving someone, a part of us always feels terrified by the fear of losing them. Every passing day I lose hope to see you again. Every passing day each part of me shivers with the dying hope to see you again. 

I wish I could shout at you.. I wishhh I could tell you..

We were better together. We were better together.. We were better together....

Alas! We are not anymore.:(

The wind is quite cold tonight. I am tired now and squatted here in this corner of our rooftop. My arms are holding my legs close. I am feeling very cold tonight. The fire of our love has now started to die down. The body has forgotten the warmth of your presence and now the weather seems to trouble it. When I look upto this mountain between us, it seems to be growing every passing minute. My cry for you echoes back to me and I don't even know what you would be doing the other side. How would the world treating you there? What happens to the tender heart of yours'? Are you alright.....? 

The harsh mountain instead of answering me, keep asking me questions..!

It asks me, "Were it not you both, who decided to be on the opposite sides.?" 

Do you remember that Rockstar quote, "Somewhere beyond the ideas of right doing, wrong doing, there is a world & we will meet there."

I hope one day our fate lead us to that place, where there is nothing wrong and nothing right. Even 'we two' doesn't make any sense there. Where our souls could get rid of the wounds this world has caused us. Where just for once we could cry together incessantly to never ever cry again. Where we could live that simple and sweet life that we had always dreamt of. 

I know I pictured life very grim here, but believe me, it has hidden treasures for us. No matter what we seek but what we eventually get, is always wonderful..

Believe me, "Life is beautiful." 

So don't worry much. As they say, "Whatever happens, happens for good always." 

Hopes are wonderful. They give us one another day to live. With such hopes, It's time to go down now. Sleep now....

And yes I will tell you this lie when I meet you..

"I don't miss you now. I don't even care for you. And ofcourse, I am the happiest soul on this planet. Get lost now."

Goodnight.

Akshay

(Not your's)

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